So I just changed my blog banner.
If you haven't noticed :P
I've been messing around with editing photos lately.
And studying .
Can't wait for PMR to be over.
Listening to Chasing The Sun-The Wanted. People find it weird that I like bands/artists that are completely different from each other. Take Linkin Park and Gloriana for an example O__o. But I lovez music.
So anyway, what are your thoughts on suicide?
I know it's wrong, but that doesn't mean that I haven't thought of it or attempted it before.
When I'm really depressed, I think about it a lot. How easy it would be to just take my own life and be gone from this world. But then I remember all the things that I live for, God, my family, friends, cat and all the little things that make life meaningful.
The only time that I've ever attempted to commit suicide was 4 years ago. I had a lot of problems and I was extremely depressed. I wasn't really thinking when I took a blade and cut myself. No pain, no feeling. Just numbness and blood. I remember staring at it for a while, then I went to clean it up. I promised myself (and God) that I wouldn't attempt to take my life again, no matter how depressed I am.
When I think about suicide, I wonder how people might feel if I ever kill myself. How would it affect the people I love? I don't want to ruin other people's life because of my own selfishness and disregard for their feelings.
There's always a reason to live, no matter how bad things get :)
Smile at people who look sad, make people laugh by just doing silly things and being childish. You never know when you can save a life just by a random act of kindness.
So go out there, and smile.
Make a difference.